Reflections first: I am pleased to announce that the first order of business for me in this class has been completed to satisfaction. I have organized all of my relevant writing projects into a group of approximately ten folders on a new Dropbox account that I set up after asking around and arriving at a consensus that this is the best overall utility for the job. I am already beyond thrilled with my ability to access Word documents from any computer in a matter of seconds. I wish I had figured this out earlier, as it would have saved me a lot of stress last year, but I was too busy writing. Not an entirely bad outcome, all things considered.
I have two new, rough pieces I’m going to post momentarily. I have been sick for over ten days now and having extremely bizarre lucid dreams on a nightly basis. One of these provided the bulk of the text for the piece I am tentatively naming OCD Dream. The second piece “The Rake Thinker” was directly inspired by the Dahlen readings, and is my attempt at floating on a free stream of consciousness to allow an inner voice to speak out in passages not entirely intended and certainly not overly examined (as of yet). I found this passage to be thought-provoking “The Relational poet constructs by way of a collection of gathered materiel, an “accumulation of sediments” that may contribute to an “apprehension of the world not as an unshaped bundle of of materials waiting to be formed, but rather a diverse and extensive patterning that is already formed and transforming, already imbued with a logic.”
This speaks to me loudly in two main ways. First, my experience as an alcoholic-turned-sober in 2008 and the journey since then to present seems to continue to make sense to me in ways that are not readily apparent, but continue to show pieces of an emergent puzzle that seems to make a bizarre/beautiful form of sense. If I had one main abstract goal this semester, it would be to somehow effectively convey this in a series of essays, poems, songs or otherwise.
Secondly, that Dahlen quote resonates with me as I continue my unexpected journey through the creative writing program here at EMU. I never saw ANY of this coming, in fact I used to despise the type of writing I often find myself reading and enjoying these days.I know now that reading pulp and fantasy, while a pleasant diversion, was never going to help me with the long transformation from light to darkness that I am living my way though with no map and little guidelines. These thoughts presently cause me to make a mental note to add a profile section to this blog to give any potential readers access to my back story. More on that soon.
OCD Dream 88
If one has a partner, then two has two more,
and every four is a dance in an ocean of fours
from wall to wall, from ceiling to floor.
And how did I ever arrive at time with so many
numbers passing idly by?
How did I ever love rhyme and embrace off-rhyme,
or open arms to 3/4 time?
Did I ever feel close to 1/3 with half of
my mind’s eye?
Is it loud in the night,
when I thrash around and disrupt the pillows
I set just right before a thoughtless,
dreamless tempest?
The Rake Thinker
Observe the second. The stent was a success and we blew it. If the Rake Thinker came though you knew. In a place, wet, dark. Over the occasion, out with the break. In, or if, hell, even then. When the rows connect nose to nose, you’re a you in your own. The Rake Thinker puts time in rows.
Here is your chorus, cloven. She got me good. When building, avoid the acrobat. Arc. Park. Dark hearts fumbling start. This is the way to jail a male, free a mile. This,the your-fist-and-free-smile combo. There was no cloudy mood, if it’s a wrap. I was connected, you bought rows, she brought whatever those were, and the Rake Thinker did.
Tear is no sounds like. A glare is above usually. There is where it is no run and no running and no nun run-ons.
I’m no baby. We got in freezing. I lit a twitchy bit instantly and. A curious scarecrow got the lead. She’s done. Crops in, work out. Turn, swerving softly, won’t repeat unless in rows.
Welcome to the baked faker. You have a clear. I’m up and ready to IM. We are probably.